I miss this. I miss the words which shamelessly escape my tongue, mixed with insanity on the pursuit of happiness. I miss the confusion
corrupting my conscience, hopelessly searching for a route to some sanity, and
mostly, I miss tracking the progress to happily ever after.
Grown-up life has changed my direction drastically.
These days, I’m surrounded by peace, with just enough chaos to fulfill my
craving. My night-owl tendencies are fading away, and most nights, I sleep in
peace when terrifying dreams aren’t chasing my rest. I can call myself
ecstatic, but I’ve neglected a part of me vital to my existence, and that is
something I admit with shame.
These days, I sound different than I used to. I’ve
earned a part of me that I’ve long awaited, but every now and then, I’m still
on the hunt for insanity. I like to journey through the cemetery across the
street, and occasionally, suntan on a bench next to dead people. I like to
philosophize over white wine, and wake up to the sweet sounds of trance that
keep me company in the midst of cooking breakfast. Sometimes, I slither beneath
the lavender-scented sheets, and do absolute-nothingness in the realm of my
freedom.
In other thoughts and stories, I continue to track
the progress to happily ever after, but one thing I’ve learned is that happily
ever after was the one chasing me. I
must have been playing hard to get. Put to rest your search for happiness –
when the time is right, it claims you.
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